This is the sunset I want to ride off into some day.

My favorite quote

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not
our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the
world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't
feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not
just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we
unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated
from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.



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Friday, October 21

Impossible?..... NOT!!!!

Hey Everybody,

So I have this renewed spirit in me... I have yet to test it in the gym but that doesn't even matter because I am so excited about this right now. I do have negative thoughts but I'm trying my hardest to not let those get to me. Not entirely but part of this excited feeling is due to a song I heard for the first time on The Biggest Loser from like two weeks ago that I was yes just "getting around" to seeing tonight. SO the song is called Impossible by Kate Earl and I found it on Youtube and just keep playing it over and over. I feel like it explains so well the things I've been going through on my journey. So here's the lyrics... if I can figure it out I'm going to try to put the video on here but you know me... who knows if it'll work lol.

no matter how hard
no matter how tough
there is no turning back
no way you’ll ever give up on me
no matter how dark
no matter how deep
the challenges may be
you’re gonna find me right here
always right beside you
What ever curve
life may throw
we’re in it together
cause you and i
are building our dream
they say impossible
they say it can’t be done
can’t break us down cause we’re unstoppable
they say too difficult
that it could never work
they think that we’ve been tryin for too long
but i know better
i know that we’re about to show them all
no matter how sick
no matter how tired
frustrated i become
you never let me give into that
no matter who sees
no matter who thinks
that they can put you down
go on and hold your head high honey
circumstances for worse or better
are no excuse to forfeit our dreams
they say impossible
they say it can’t be done
can’t break us down cause we’re unstoppable
they say too difficult
that it could never work
they think that we’ve been tryin for too long
they can say what they want to
anyway it never matters what they think
they’re still blind and we’re still free
i know i know i know...
they say impossible they say it can’t be done can’t break us down cause we’re unstoppable they say too difficult that it could never work they think that we’ve been tryin for too long but i know better but i know we’ll prove them wrong cause i know better i know that we’re about to show them all

Ok the only thing with this song is that when it's said "They say... They can't" for me all of those things are the things I was telling myself. I didn't think it was possible. I believed all of those things about myself and about the things I was trying to do in my life. I don't for sure know when things but man am I glad they did. I just wish I could inspire that change in other people. But for now I'm determined to just be happy with what I've done for myself and to keep it happening.


I finally jumped off the platue (sp?) I've been on for like.... I don't know a REALLY really long time. I was stuck at the 195lbs mark for months... honestly almost a year. I've gotten past that though. I got back to the gym and honestly I thought my workouts sucked lately I didn't feel like I was doing the best I could. But it paid off anyways. I lost 3 pounds. I know I know 3 pounds is nothing compared to the 30-35 I've already lost but I was stuck for so long and honestly that 30-35 lbs added up because of the 2,3,4 pound weight losses. I started this journey at a size 24 or 3X. Just the other day i bought (shouldn't have but did anyway :/) a pair of pants that are a size.... GET THIS... 16!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited.


I never thought i could do this but now I've proven that I CAN. Some people even myself sometimes and people that love me that it's taken too long. Well yes maybe it has but I'm just glad it's happening at all and fact is... yes FACT that people who lose their weight slowly have a better chance of keeping it off PERMANENTLY!!!! Thats what I'm going for here a life change... a healthy life for the rest of my life.


I have so much to say but I really need to get to bed and this has been long enough as it is. lol I hope you all enjoyed this post. I'm hoping now that I've gotten all this feeling out I won't be as emotional as I have been the last week. BYE p.s. I love you all for being on this journey with me. THANK YOU!!!!

Thursday, August 4

Tired

Hey Everybody,

I am soooooo tired right now. I just got done with a workout..... and my internet at home hasn't been working very well so I thought I'd write on here before i leave the y. Take advantage of the good internet service they have here. So the whole reason for writing in here this evening is becuase I had a very emotional workout this evening. I'm not sure why. I haven't been emotional lately. So that got me thinking.... Do any of you ever get emotional when you workout? Now I know by asking this question I'm setting myself up for dissapointment because as much as I hope somebody might comment, history has shown that it's a rare occasion that anybody actually does. But hey I'm still throwin it out there. Please answer this question I am genuinely interested. I was also thinking it could just be because of the music I was listening to. I was really hooked on the inspirational ones tonight like, Michael Jackson's "Man in the Mirror" thats one of my favorite workout songs and Britt Nicole's "Set the world on fire" another favorite song to workout to. These songs just remind me of some of the reasons I am working out and trying to get healthier. I want to make a difference in this world, in the people I know. I want to go on adventures and do things that I've never done because of either the inability to be too physical because of my weight or the insecurity I felt/feel with the way I look because of my weight. I am so proud of how far I've come but when I look at myself in the mirror in my workout clothes I just don't feel that different. Or when I think about going to try on dresses for my sisters wedding. I get nervous cause I know going from a size 22/24 down to a size 16/18 is amazing but thats still a pretty big size for a bridesmaid dress. Those sizes aren't usually just hanging around the bridal shops. I just don't feel like it's good enough yet and I'm getting down to crunch time (lol no pun intended) I had a nightmare about a week ago that I was at the rehearsal dinner and realized I hadn't gotten my dress for the wedding the next day. I freaked out when I woke up all with this need to find a dress NOW! Now I've been kind of freaking out about it wanting to hurry to get a dress but at the same time I want to give myself enough time to lose more weight cause I am losing little bits at a time. I don't know what my last check in weight was on here but last time I checked (after a week of not eating because of an extremely bad tooth infection ;) ) I weighed in at 193. Which is incredibly exciting for me since I started this journey at 220 lbs. Also I was stuck at the 195 mark for sooo long. I'm glad to have finally beaten it. But in the beginning I made my goal date this summer. Well I didn't meet that goal but I am still on my journey :) Oh something exciting happened this week too. Kind of ironic but still cool none the less. I was at McDonalds grabbing some dinner and a girl I went to high school with was working there and told me she had read my blog. I love it when I hear this because I don't always know who reads this. I love love love to hear when people do cause I'm the type of person who gets really discouraged easily and I figure whats the point of writing in here when nobody reads it anyways.

Wow i've been babbling alot and it is waaaaaay past being time to go home.. I still have a half hour drive home. But I feel much better now that I've gotten all this off my mind. Thank you whoever you are reading this. Good night and God Bless

Monday, July 11

Set the world on fire ;)

Hey there!!!

I'm over apologizing for not writing in here. It may still be true (which it is) B.U.T. I'm sure your sick of hearing it and I'm sick of saying it soooo....

The point of this post (because yes I feel the need to to have a point to every post I right) is that I don't think weightloss has to be the only topic of my discussions on here. What I mean by this is that when my life started to change with my weightloss, it's not the only thing that changed in my life. I feel my relationship with God also changed for the better. I'm going to share the lyrics to one of my current favorite songs with you because I really feel it explains how I feel.



I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for You
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?
I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I cannot do
Nothing I cannot do
I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father's hands
I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I cannot do
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I cannot do
My hands, my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me
I wanna set the world on fire
Wanna set the world on fire, yeah
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I cannot do, no
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
'Cause Lord with You
There's nothing I can't do
Nothing I can't do
I'm gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

I feel this explains the way I feel right now in my life so well because before I started losing weight I didn't think I could do anything with my life. I thought I would always be fat. And that would always stand in the way of making my dreams come true. And the biggest mistake of all.... I thought I was in charge of my own life and what was to be or was not to be... lol I know that sounds kind of confusing but I hope you understand anyways :) What I'm trying to say is that I realize that I CAN do the things I've always dreamed of but Only with God's HELP. Also that my life and body doesn't belong to me. It belongs to God and everything happens for a reason. And this body he gave me is a gift. My life, My body, My Money, My possesions they're not really mine. They're all Gods He's just letting me borrow them and supposedly I'm supposed to be caring for them. Like I would care for somebody's children, pets, plants, etc. I've been doing a lousy job of taking care of this life and body God has given me to take care of. I'm sorry I'm getting away on a little bit of a tangent here. anyways starbucks is closing and kicking me out... not really but i know how it feels to be closing and i'm sure they want to leave so.... BYE

Monday, April 18

wow

Hey Everybody,

I didn't realize how long it had been since I wrote in here. Thats crazy.... It's been THREE months. :( I'm sorry. I haven't been keeping you all updated on whats been going on with me. The good news is that just because I haven't been writing in here does NOT mean I haven't been working out. :) You may ask what provoked me to write in here tonight? It's that I took a peek at how many views my blog has gotten in the last three months and in January (the last time I wrote) I had over 200 views but what really caught me off guard is that even though I haven't been writing my blog has been having over 50 views a month. I might as well give people an update on whats going on with me.

First off I haven't been having a whole lot of results but my winter was very rough for a lot of reasons. I'm not going to go into all that right now but, just know I've started over. Something that encourages me is the results I've had in the past. I know now that I CAN lose weight on my own. It's just time to start doing it again. I have been going to the gym but not as much as I know I can and should be. I'm hoping that by starting this relationship back up between me and my blog followers we can all get back on track together.

I don't know about any of you but it helps me A TON to get feedback. So I'm going to start this .... Renewal? with an opening for any of you who read this to ask me any question you want... weightloss journey related or not. Feel free to do so in the comment section below. I would love love love to get a conversation started. Please don't give up on me. I want to thank God for putting this drive back in me. And ask all of you for your help in my journey. Thanks for stickin with me.

Talk to ya soon ;) Kelly

Saturday, January 22

Bdubs.

Hi Everybody,

I don't really have anything to say I just wanted to share with all of you that, as I'm laying here in bed ready to go to sleep (early) because I'm getting up early in the morning to go down to COlumbus with my mom to go wedding shopping and planning with my sis and another bridesmaid, I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to be at a bw3's drinking a huge ass margarita thats probably thousands of calories and devouring a plate full of ooey gooey chicken wings with tons of ranch and at this point I really just wished that I LIVED in Bowling Green or Perrysburg where I could just be there in two minutes.. That said, it's probably a blessing in disguise that I don't live close enough to one. :) :( ?

Anyways thats all.... thanks and goodnight.

Tuesday, January 18

SIcky poo

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!!

So..... I have alot to say this evening but unfortunatly I'm feeling very poorly. I had a very bad tooth infection over the weekend which led to me being pretty darn sick this week. I'm very tired and need to get some sleep because no matter how poorly I'm feeling I'm going to Boston in a couple of weeks and need the money so I have to get up and go to work in the morning... SO...


If your a biggest loser fan like me... I had alot of feelings about tonights episode I'm not going to rewrite everything I just put on facebook so if you care what I think about tonights episode go look at my post I put on facebook.

FYI, I went to the gym for the first time in a LONG time this afternoon. I did not go for the zumba class. I just went and did a regular workout after work. IT FELT good. :) My body was really craving some cardio action. I did a half hour on the eliptical goin from a high crossramp to a low and back up to the high again. Then I did a little while on the bike. I don't usually do the bike but I was wanting some more cardio but wasn't feeling very well so wanted something easy. Then I ventured over to do my weights and this is where I plumeted. :( I did one round of my arm weights and I crashed and came home made a semi healthy dinner. My parents had already stuck some stuffed pork chops in the oven and asked me to open a can of veggies to go with them but instead I got some fresh veggies I had recently bought at the grocery store and steamed them up to go with our dinner. :) I felt very proud of myself for doing this. I had really been wanting to make a full fledged healthy dinner of grilled fish and veggies and some new rice pilaf I bought but we didn't have any fish and unfortunatley I didn't have the money to go out and get some therefore being stuck with the stuffed porkchops.


Ok so thats long enough for now... oh wait I forgot to tell you. Since I've been sick the last couple days my throat has been REALLY sore so I've been drinking A TON of HOT TEA!!! In the past I've never been able to find a hot tea I really liked.... UNTIL NOW. I LOVE love loVE GREEN TEA. I work at Bob evans and while working we can have all the hot tea we want so I've drank like 2-3 cups of the stuff the last couple of days then today after my workout I rewarded myself with a trip to starbucks (somewhere I haven't been in a pretty long time) and tried THEIR hot green tea and loved it even more than what we have at BOb Evans. I feel really good about this because not only does it taste good and feel good on my throat but I just happen to know that Green Tea is really good for you. I put quite a bit of honey in it to sweeten it up but thats ok because honey is good for you too. (In moderation) Ok now I think I'm really done :) The IBprofin 800 and Nyquil I took are kicking in I think. TIme to get some sleep....

GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 10

Learning

Hey Everybody,

So I'm sitting here at the library reading the blogging book I got for Christmas. I'm trying to learn more about blogs for a few reasons. 1. So it will hopefully begin to be a tool in my weightloss as it was first intended to do. 2. I would like to learn how to make my blog better so that; more people want to read and follow it, and so that those of you that are already following will read more often and be more interactive with it. One thing I have been told that makes my blog less attractive is the fact that I cannot for the life of me figure out how to make paragraphs, well I have not learned yet but I would like to make all of you aware that I am looking! :)

One thing I just read that might help me and I'm looking forward to because I do enjoy looking at other blogs is to do just that. The author of this blogs for dummies (yes seriously) says to research other peoples blogs with similiar subjects and goals of the blog your doing. So thats something I'm going to try to do.

Something else I wanted to share with all of you because it seems one way I push myself to be productive in my weightloss journey is to be held accountable for what I'm doing. So therefore I am going to keep you all informed on my plans for making this work. The first way I'm going to do that is by telling you all I am going to make it a point to go to the gym on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I know thats not alot right now but with my crazy work schedule and what I've been doing lately (NOTHING) I think this is a good place to start. I know yesterday I told you all I was going to sign up for the Zumba class at the Y. Well kind of bad news. I called to sign up for that class today and was informed that it was FULL. I was not aware that that could happen so I'm going to do two things for now. 1. I have the money I was given for Christmas to do this class on my account as a credit. Therefore if I am not able to find a class this session it will still be there for the next session and I can tell you I will be one of the first people signed up for the Tuesday night Zumba classes lol. 2. I'm going to just kind of "show up" at the Tuesday night classes and see exactly how full they are because YMCA max members who are signed up for a core class are supposed to be able to go to any other core classes any time so.. I'm still going to make an attempt to go to this class. Also I figure if I'm already at the gym and the class is too full to take I can always just go up to the gym and do a regular workout which I should tell you its been so long since I've done that I'm kind of terrified of how my first workout back goes. :/

Ok well thats all for now so I'm going to continue reading and maybe have something more to tell you about later. BYES :D

Sunday, January 9

short and to the point

Hey Everybody, So its a new year. I am focusing and RE-starting my weight loss journey. For Christmas my sister payed for me to go to the "core" classes that the ymca offers that I've been wanting to do for so long. I was getting really frustrated because i wasn't able to make my work schedule what it needed to be to be able to take any classes. Then I got frustrated because my mom and i were supposed to take the Zumba class together and I was really excited about that but then she backed out. SO NOW I'm back into what I was focusing on when I started this journey a year ago. I AM DOING THIS FOR ME AND NOBODY ELSE!! I am going to get my butt back to the gym on a regular basis. AND I also received from my sister for Christmas a couple of books on blogging. So hopefully I'll learn about a few new creative ways to keep this blog up to date and interesting. :) I'm also going to Boston with my sister to see our other "sister" at the end of the month.... it will be my first time on a plane and I'm terrified but completely excited as well. So that is just a little information on what is going on with me and now I have to get my butt to work. Soooo.... I'm gonna go and hope all of you are back on board with me... OH I almost forgot to mention that one of my places of employment is having a "biggest loser" competition. :) I don't know if there's any prizes or anything but we just had to sign up and put (if we wanted) what our starting weight was and how much we plan to lose by April 1st. I said I was going to lose 20 pounds in 3 months so I better get to it :D ok really thats all. BYES