This is the sunset I want to ride off into some day.

My favorite quote

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not
our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the
world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't
feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not
just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we
unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated
from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.



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Wednesday, March 31

So Sad

Hi Everybody,



So I feel Super crappy today. I'm actually here at the Y toi workout but can't seem to get into it. I went to bed last night not feeling the greatest. And woke up this morning feeling even worse down right SICK!!!! I actually wanted to post last night after I watched TBL but like I said waaaay too tired. It was great. I wanted to cry like 5 times. I do admit that might have had a little to do with the cold I was coming down with. But still last night was great except for MELISSA coming back that made me very sad. But I'm sure this season was just being a little too "nice" not getting enough drama so had to bring her back for that. Anyways I need peoples feedback on how to continue on working out and keeping up the good work while feeling like crap and like you can't move a muscle.

BYE

Friday, March 26

YAY!!!

Hi Everybody,

So I'm super excited, I have been religiously checking my blog in the last few days hoping that somebody from THE BIGGEST LOSER would "follow" my blog and maybe even comment on it and such. NO that has not happened yet but we are one step closer. You see My account that I have with Statcounter which is the company that keeps track of how many people visit my site also has an application where you can look at where in the world all the people who look at your blog are looking from. That seems kind of confusing I hope you were all able to understand. So anyways I looked at that today and it showed that 3-4 people from the San Jose area in California have looked at my blog. :) Now I'm not exactly sure where the Ranch is so I googled it (of course) and nobody can really tell you specifically probably for safety reasons but I was able to find that it is just North West of Los Angeles which is where San Jose is. :) I just am so honored that people from THE BIGGEST LOSER looked at my blog. I'm so excited. :)

In case theres anybody reading who doesn't know I will tell a little of my history with THE BIGGEST LOSER. I started watching the BIGGEST LOSER towards the end of season 3, as I'm looking back I'm realizing that I started off just watching the end of the seasons like when it gets down to the 4 finalists. I'm also realizing that I started watching it after coming home from my 3 months at The University of Findlay.

After I graduated from high school in 2005 I was accepted to The University of Findlay. I think it was the best day of my life. You see it's a pretty amazing school. I had a pretty good rap sheet in High school, I was a very good student with the exception of math and I had always dreamed of going away to school. During High school I had come to the conclusion that I wanted to be an Occupational Therapist specializing in Pediactrics because I have always loved children. So thats what I went to Findlay to do, they have one of the leading Occupational Therapy programs in Ohio. Well to say the least it was totally different that I expected it to be. I was a totally different person than I expected to be. I learned that I am a VERY family oriented person, which really I should have known before but I never thought it would be such a PROBLEM. I also didn't have any friends in Findlay with me and I'm not a person that makes friends very easily. I also did not have a car with me on campus so I was unable to just go home to see my family or go see friends whenever I wanted. I completely relied on others to come visit me or pick me up when I wanted to go home for a holiday or weekend or anything really. All of this together added up to make my time in Findlay A DISASTER!! I skipped class all the time. I would stay locked in my single dorm all day long. I ate all the time and became very very depressed (which at that time I didn't even know that was the case.) All of this added up to be the beginning of the worst year of my life. I started at Findlay in the end of August as a great happy student weighing in at an overweight (as I had been most of my life) 200-205 lbs. This is bad enough but when I came home for Christmas break vowing to do better next semester, I received my grades and a letter on Christmas Eve. My grades showed that of the 5 classes I started out with then after dropping two of them at midterm because of my bad performance I had only passed 1 class after three months in Findlay. That letter I received also informed me that I was on academic suspension. I had to clean out my dorm within the week so somebody else could have it the next semester because I was not able to come back. This Christmas break did absolutley nothing to help that deep depression I had sunk into while I was at Findlay. I was now home with my family, but I was a huge dissapointment, mostly to myself but there was also that relationship with my family that needed help because none of them had any idea what I was going through, what had happpened in Findlay, or how to help me. When I came home I had gained more weight in that three months than I ever had before. I weighted a whopping 230 pounds thats a gain of about 25-30 pounds in 3 months. I continued to be so sad and depressed after I came home I kept that weight on for about another year, before I got back to church and realized that I had to learn to forgive myself and get on with my life.

Until I started this last and final weightloss journey I had been sticking at about 215-220 pounds for about 3 years or so. I'm now down to just over 200 pounds. about the same as I was when I graduated from high school 5 years ago.

Anyways as I started to say before I started watching The Biggest loser occasionaly during season 3 and season 4. Then Season 5 my mom and I started watching everysingle episode of TBL together every Tuesday night. We're still doing that now. My first audition for the biggest loser took place during the fall of 2008 for season seven I think. I kept it a secret from most of the important people in my life. I filled out the extremely long application then I recruited a friend of mine to make a (very rough) video like the applicants are supposed to. I mailed it all in without telling anyone then finally one night while watching the show with my mom I couldn't wait any longer and by this time I had pretty much known I didn't make it, I told her, "hey did you ever know I auditioned to be on the show?" lol it was kind of funny. Then my next shot was for either season 8 or 9 I don't remember I went about it in a little bit of a smarter way this time. There's a friend of the family who does film for his career and he and I got together one day and did a much better video with pictures from my past and a mini interview I did in his back yard kind of telling the story of me and my weight problems from all my life. It was pretty amazing so I sent that in yet again with my updated application. Then I found that TBL casting people were going to be in Detroit Michigan which is only a couple hours from where I live so my mom and I went up there for an overnighter and I took my video and my application and applied in person. Still nothing happened. I have not tried again though my mom has been trying to persuade me to. I just don't want to be dissapointed again. I'm working on it for the first time by myself and I'm determined to make it work though I feel like I'm sort of loosening up on the reigns maybe a little more than I should be right now. I'm in it for the long stretch. I still would love to be on the show more than anything though. I've gotten the going to the gym and the hard workouts down but I really need the help they have to offer on how to excel my workouts and balance my diet properly. And how to transform my favorite comfort foods that I turn to, into a not so bad for me snack that I can use to energize my body. Those people are amazing they're my hero's. Especially the ones who are solely there to lose the weight. No temptations. You're not there to win money, or have power over anyone other than yourself. I would love to meet BOB some day too I absolutely LOVE him. And I had a dream once that he was standing in my kitchen to suprise me that I had made it onto the show. I still have hope that that will happen someday. But for now it's all in my hands and I need to get these hands to the gym. So I hope I haven't bored anyone to tears with this extremely long post. Have a great day!!! :)

BYE

Tuesday, March 23

Contestants :)

Hey Everybody,

I just wanted to let everybody know I'm super excited I just facebook stalked all the current and past Biggest Loser contestants I could find and asked them to be my friends and invited them to check out the blog and even become followers and give me pointers and advice and become a part of my journey with us. :) I'm very optimistic I hope some of them come and visit. Cross your fingers. Maybe it would even be a good way for me to get on the show if they learn about my blog and the journey I'm on get to know a little more about me. ? I don't know it's worth a shot right? Something different anyways. Oh yeah so I still haven't started that laundry I said I was going to like 3 hours ago I guess if I can at least get it sorted maybe get a load in I will be one step ahead of the game tommorow morning. :)

Using those healthiest foods :)

Hey Everybody, :)

I'm super happy this evening I've had a great day. I finally made it to the gym which felt great it was a relatively short workout timing in at just an hour but I feel good about it I stretched the time well between half an hour on the eliptical steady at a crossramp of 5. I then did my arm weights and some floor exercises on a balance ball. I need to get better on that though I am not so sure if I'm doing those right. The best part of today though is that I've been looking forward to making dinner for almost a week now. I love to cook and I like to try new foods. I haven't had the money or time to buy the healthy creative ingredients I need to make the dinners I do. So I put that list I picked up at the gym of the 23 healthiest foods to good use tonight. I made a full dinner using completely all the foods from that list. I made parmesan herb chicken with baked sweet potatoes with a honey orange sauce and a grilled garlic broccoli dish. It was all pretty delicious I just have a habit of over cooking food especially meat and since I cook chicken more often than any other meat my success rate of overcooking it is astronomical. So of course thats what I did tonight. My mom thought it was amazing although she loves almost every food she eats overcooked. It was really good I would love to make it again maybe not cook it quite so much though. Oh I almost forgot about the best part DESSERT, yes I said DESSERT and I stuck with the healthy theme too. :) I made a peach-blueberry Crumb dessert and instead of topping it with ice cream or whipped topping, either would have probably ruined the whole dinner, INSTEAD I topped it with vanilla yogurt, and it was DELICIOUS!!!!!!

Enough about dinner, now onto THE BIGGEST LOSER :) I have a new crush. Darius. My mom started it seeing how him and I are very similiar people. She's trying to get me to get in contact with him. I found him on facebook. I feel kind of goofy like I'm stalking him or something lol. I guess it would just be really cool to talk to somebody that had been on the biggest loser. Hell he might even WIN!!! :) And he's kinda cute too ;) Now that my great day is coming to an end i gotta get a load of laundry in so I have work clothes tommorow. :( I'm looking forward to my weekend. I'm going to see a kid I went to high school with sing at a club in Bowling Green he was on American Idol, his name is Luke James. Thats on Thursday then Saturday is my best friends birthday so we're going out. It should be an awesome weekend. Hope to hear lots of encouraging comments from everybody soon. BYE

Monday, March 22

23 healthiest foods

Hello Everybody,

  • So sorry I haven't been posting very much latley. With the nice weather we've been having lately I haven't been going to the gym very much. However that does not mean that I have not been exercising, I've been taking a couple of walks outside. With the dog without the dog in different places. I figure it's not too bad to get away from the gym for a week as long as I jump back in and start right back where I left off at. I'm thinking if I can get my laundry done tommorow morning I'll go do a nice long workout going swimming and everything I am sad to say I haven't done that in a really long time so I think it's well over due. I also have continued to attend the Oregon Y on Wednesday and Thursday evenings after I get off work at Bob Evans. As y0u can see I haven't been posting much cause I don't have much to say. I have alot going on outside of my world of weightloss so..... it's kindof taking presidence right now unfortunatly. BUT I am happy to say just because I have other things going on I have not fallen offf the wagon. And I am continuing to feel my clothes getting looser and certain parts of my body changing as well. I have made one change in my workout routine and that is that I have changed my dumbell weight from 5 to 8 lbs I'm not sure if I put that in the last post I did or if I was just trying to make that change at that time. BUt I've done it now so thats what matters :) Also I've made myself a new goal. I have two weddings comming up this spring early summer. A good friend of mine from high school is getting married in May and one of my cousins is getting married in June so my current goal is to get my arms firmed up and looking decent enough that I don't feel like I need to cover them up at the weddings. I have this dress that I absolutely LOVE if I'm feeling really ambitious I might take a picture of it and post it but anyways I bought it myself about 3 years ago for a wedding and it's the only dress I own that fits anyways it's strapless so because I've always hated the way my arms look .... flabby and stretch marks and I have these spots on my arms that look like acne but I don't think it is I'm not sure I've always had them anyways moral of the story is that I don't like my arms so I've been doing some intense weight lifting not like a body builder intense but like focusing on them big time everysingle workout doing like 5 different exercising just on my arms and attempting to accelerate my length of time in low weights. Anyways thats what I have going on now.

So I found this list at the gym of the top 25 healthiest foods to eat. SO I thought I'd share it with all of you. :) I hope you enjoy. I found it very interesting. They are in no certain order just random healthiest foods to eat.....

23 my bad
  • Salmon
  • Oatmeal
  • Beans
  • Walnuts
  • Tofu
  • Soy Milk
  • Carrots
  • Sweet Potatoes
  • Red Bell Peppers
  • Tomatoes
  • Cantaloupe
  • Greet Tea
  • Flax Seed
  • Dark Chocolate
  • Almonds
  • Tuna
  • Brown Rice
  • Blueberries
  • Spinach
  • Asparagus
  • Oranges
  • Acorn Squash
  • Papaya

Monday, March 8

Hey everybody,

I have been wanting to do this for awhile but I'm finally getting around to it. I want to provide my Workout Playlist that I have on my Mp3 player. I will caption next to each if it's one I really like to jam out to or if it's one that really inspires me or even one that I don't normally listen to but I think it might be nice to work out to some day lol. SO I hope you enjoy and maybe take some of them and use them yourselves or if you have any suggestions I would love that too. THANKS


  1. Proud - Heather Small (this is the Biggest LOser theme song... it inspires me a ton always reminds me to do something to make me proud of myself for the day. :)
  2. Jump around - House of Pain
  3. 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
  4. I'm Commin Out - Diana Ross - this song inspires me alot I feel like it's kind of an anthem to my journey. :)
  5. Loveshack - B52's (always been a favorite of mine... very fun song )
  6. Dancing Queen - Abba
  7. ABC 123 - Michael Jackson
  8. Ain't Goin Down till the Sun comes up - Garth Brooks
  9. All I want to do - Sugarland
  10. All the Small things - Blink 182
  11. Battlefield - Jordan Sparks
  12. I get around - Beach Boys
  13. Believe - Britt Nicole
  14. Bidi Bidi Bom Bom - Selena
  15. Bills Bills Bills - Destineys Child
  16. Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas
  17. Old Time Rock and Roll - Bob Segar
  18. Like a Rolling Stone - Bob Dylan
  19. Born to Handjive - Grease
  20. A new day has come - Celine Dion
  21. Cold as Ice - Foreigner
  22. Crazy Bitch - Buck Cherry
  23. Ready to Run - Dixie Chicks
  24. Do Wa Diddy - Beach Boys
  25. Dollhouse - Pricilla Renae
  26. Down - Jay Sean
  27. Dream Weaver - Peter Frampton
  28. Electric Slide - Dance Mix - Abba Medley
  29. Cleaning out my closet - Eminem
  30. The real slim shady - Eminem
  31. Everyday America - Sugarland
  32. Family Affairs - Mary J. Blige
  33. Footloose - Kenny Loggins
  34. Funhouse - Pink
  35. Give me the beat boys - BOb Segar
  36. Gotta be something more - Sugarland
  37. Hangin Tough - New Kids on the Block
  38. Heaven is a place on Earth - Wilson Phillips
  39. Hips don't lie - Shakira
  40. Hold On - Wilson Phillips ( Great song I love to work out to it very inspiring)
  41. I got you babe - Sonny and Cher
  42. I got a feeling - Black eyed Peas
  43. I want this forever - Drake
  44. If I could turn back time - Cher
  45. IT Happens - Sugarland
  46. IT's a great day to be alive - Travis Tritt
  47. SOn of a preacherman - Janis Joplin
  48. Me and bobby McGee - Janis Joplin
  49. Empire State of Mind - JayZ Alica Keys
  50. Jock Jams
  51. Ain't that America - John Cougar Mellancamp
  52. Life Goes ON - " "
  53. Rockin in the USA
  54. Small Town
  55. Summer of 69
  56. Walls come crumblin down
  57. Sold - John Michael Montgomery
  58. Don't stop believin - Journey
  59. Just Dance - Lady Ga Ga ( I usually don't like her songs but this is a great workout song )
  60. Just stand up - Maria Carey, Beyonce, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, + alot others
  61. Larger than Life - Backstreet Boys
  62. Lets get it started - Black eyed peas
  63. Lose Yourself - Eminem
  64. Man in the mirror - Michael Jackson ( I always rock out to this song inspires me alot )
  65. Don't stop till you get enough - Michael Jackson
  66. HoeDown Throwdown - Miley Cyrus
  67. Stop in the name of love - diana ross and the supremes
  68. Mr Bigstuff- Arethra Franklin
  69. My Humps - Black eyed peas
  70. Natural Woman - Arethra Franklin
  71. RESPECT - Arethra Franklin
  72. No Scrubs - TLC
  73. Bye bye bye - NSYNC
  74. Party in the usa - Miley Cyrus
  75. I can see clearly Now - Peter FRampton
  76. Pickin Wildflowers- Jason ALdean
  77. Rehab - Amy WInehouse
  78. RIght Round - Flo RIder
  79. Run this town - JayZ
  80. Settlin - Sugarland
  81. Shake ya tail feather - nelly
  82. She's a wild one - Faith Hill
  83. Sideways - Dierks Bentley
  84. SIngle Ladies - Beyonce
  85. So What - Pink
  86. Step by Step - Whitney Houston
  87. The Climb - Miley Cyrus
  88. The Lost get found - Britt Nicole
  89. YMCA - village People
  90. This one's for the girls - Martina McBride
  91. Thriller - Michael Jackson
  92. Tick tock - Kesha
  93. Watermelon Crawl - John Michael Montgomery
  94. we are family - sister sledge
  95. where is the love - black eyed peas
  96. wherever whenever - shakira
  97. wild nights - john cougar mellancamp
  98. yeah - usher
  99. can't hurry love - diana ross
  100. Independant Women - Destineys child
  101. bootylicious - destineys child
  102. Survivor - Destineys child
  103. Jumpin jumpin destineys child
  104. say my name destineys child
  105. where my girls at destineys child

Ok it was longer than I thought sorry it got a little messy towards the end I am in a hurry I'm on the way to the gym and i have to get my laundry out of the dryer first :) enjoy

Weekly?

Hi Everybody,

So it appears these posts are going to pop up about weekly maybe? I still want to write in here I just don't want my whole life to be about getting on the internet every night before bed because then I never seem to get to sleep I just keep finding things to do. I bought myself the new Nickolas Sparks book, the one thats being made into Miley Cyrus's new movie, The Last Song. I love love love the book, I'm only half way through it but I am starting to realize how much I have not been reading since I got this computer and started my blog and everything. I love to read it is my most favorite thing so I've decided to find a happy medium. Every other night I can be on the computer. Hopefully I can stick to it.


So, the week in exercise. I ended the last post on Wednesday morning And I couldn't even remember what I did last Tuesday so I had to go back and reread my last post just to update myself lol. So, Wednesday night I usually go to the gym after I get done at Bob Evans, but I got off a lot later than I normally do. You see the Oregon Y closes at Ten where as the Perrysburg Y doesn't close till midnight I wish I was always able to go to that one. But anyways Wednesday night I didn't get out of work until almost 9:30 So I wouldn't have had time to drive over there change get a work out in all in a half hour. So I acutally got off work early on Thursday night and headed straight over there and did a little big longer of a workout than I usually have time to do at the Oregon Y. I was really happy with it. I did a full hour on the eliptical again but not only that but I also did intervals which I read you can lose more weight by pushing a workout then recovering over and over while on any aerobic machine rather than just going at a moderate speed the whole time your on your machine. So on Thursday night I pushed myself to go fast at a high incline for 8 minutes straight then recover by doing 12 minutes at a low incline still trying to go kind of fast, all for a total of 1 hour. :) I was very happy with that then because I had been able to get there so early I still had time to do my weight training. I did my arm weights a mixture of 5 pound and 8 pound weights doing bicep curls then I don't know what they're called I kind of feel like I made them up but I start with my arms bent at the elbow then punch up almost like the arm part of a jumping jack. I don't know if thats an accurate description but it's the best I can think of, Then I also do a move that is a little faster and more of an aerobic move I think than a muscle trainer but it could be both like I said I just kind of made some of these up. Anywyas the third and final arm weight movements I do is kind of like a fast robot move you know the robot dance people do. well I just do that really fast while holding my weights. It's fun and I do it in time to my music on my mp3 player. Then unfortunatly that was the end of last weeks workouts. I usually go on Saturday but I had a very very busy day on Saturday and was not able to fit working out into that busy schedule. But I'm going to be back full force this afternoon/evening again. I can't decide what time to go but whatever I do it's going to be an awesome workout. :) I just realized how much my workouts last week really sucked I need to get in there more this week.

One last thing, I have been meaning to tweek the playlist on my mp3 a little. I've been skipping alot of the songs that I thought would be good for working out but that just doesn't seem to be the case. I was at 115 songs when I first put the music on it now I'm down to like 80 some but I don't feel like I hear all the songs anyways so it doesn't really matter how many are on it. Alright well I need to back to my laundry so that I can get it done before I go workout. Oh by the way my "sister" Jenny sent me a card for how well I have been doing on this journey and I was so excited about it I wanted to tell you all about it. Also something kind of funny is that she sent me a Starbucks gift card too. The funny thing about that is that I never used to go to starbucks but latley I've been goin in there alot to relax after work or working out and reading I love it there it doesn't have to be real expensive or real bad for you like I used to think you just have to know how to work the menu so I'm super excited about that. THANKS JEN!!!!!

BYE EVERYBODY :) :) :) :)

Tuesday, March 2

sHOpping

Hey Everybody,


So I wanted to make sure to get this post in before I went to work today cause I'm not sure if I'll get time in the next couple of days. So... I have had a great couple of days working out. Monday I was having a pretty bad day, so instead of going out and getting ice cream to make me feel better, or going out for a drink which can be very bad for a diet as well as a wallet. So I knew after I got together with a friend of mine I had to go to the gym. So, I went to walmart to get some 5 hour energy. As I was walking around I saw that they had a huge display set up for a brand called Danskin Now. I had never heard of it but it actually caught my attention because of a big sign for THE BIGGEST LOSER I always look at those in case it's some kind of contest where I could win to meet a contestant or even better.... BOB that would be so awesome. Anyways I went to look at what it was all about. Apperantly Danskin is one of the biggest loser sponsors they make the clothes that the contestants wear. Anyways they had shorts and carpris tank tops and tshirts for super cheap. So I figured, I'd heard never actually experienced, they say retail therapy is quite helpful when your having a bad day. I bought myself a new workout tank top. I was super excited first of all that it fit which I'm thinking probably wouldn't have before. Also I stepped way way out of my comfort zone, I'm not a big fan of my arms so I don't ever like them to show, they're all flabby and have stretch marks all over them... it's gross. So I always where shirts that don't show my upper arms. Anyway I bought this shirt and went to the gym and actually wore it the entire time I was working out and yes I felt extremely uncomfortable but I also kind of like wearing it. I'm not sure I can explain it. Anyways I walked a whole hour on the tredmill of course thats because I was watching The Secret Life of the American Teenager. Then I couldn't miss my other show so I was on the eliptical for an hour while I watched Make it or Break it. The best of both woulds right there (no Hannah Montana Reference intended) I don't miss out on my workout or my favorite shows. So towards the end of my workout I convince myself that I really don't think I looked good in that shirt with my flabby arms and did I mention that this tank top was pretty tight? Ugh lol BUT I told myself I'm going to keep wearing it to keep me motivated hopefully it won't take long for the shirt to not be so tight anymore maybe instead I can get my arms to be tight that would be pretty cool. :)

Then yesterday (Tuesday) I went to the gym after I got off work and wasn't able to get right on a machine right away like I normally do so I worked on my hips (which need alot of work) on the adductor and abductor machines. Then I was able to get on the eliptical but I really wasn't feeling it so I was going kind of slow but I just considered that a warm up cause then I went down to the other workout room where it wasn't quite so busy and did another half hour on the elipitcal and that workout was a ton better. I did a new thing where I go really fast and push myself for 5 minutes then recover for 3 minutes it worked out really well and instead of doing 2 miles in 30 minutes I was able to go almost 2 and 1/4 miles in the 30 minutes cut off about 2 1/2 minutes. I felt great then came home and watched the biggest loser it was a great day.

So I'll be at the other gym for the next couple of nights. These workouts usually seem to be a little shorter since the Oregon gym closes earlier than the Perrysburg one. BUt they also seem to be a little more intense. So it all works out alright well as much as it pains me I have to go to work now. I'll talk to all of you later... probably a few days. BYE