Sorry

Hey Everyone so I'm really sorry I opened this page like two hours ago to post about everything thats been going on the last two days cause it's been kind of crazy and I have sooooo much to tell you but it is officially my 23rd birthday because it's one thirty in the morning and I'm supposed to be getting up at eight am to go workout even though I have the day off work. I have it jammed pack of stuff to do so I kind of need to get to bed. To give you a little teaser of what I've been doin up so late in the first place and whats been keeping me from posting to all of you about my crazy weekend, I have been setting up my workout music on my mp3 player and reading and filling out my journal that came with the present my sister got my for my birthday...... it's biggest loser affiliated. :P anyway here is my promise to you. I am going to take my computer on the go with me tommorow and between the Y and the laundry mat I vow I will do my long weekend post sometime tommorow before I come home and get busy with something else. have a great night ttfn

Birthday

Hey Everybody I actually need to go get ready to go to church but I've been having such an awesome weekend I wanted to let you all know. My birthday isn't actually until tommorow but most of my birthday stuff is over. I have alot to tell you but the biggest thing is that my sis's boyfriend got me set up to put music on my mp3 player yay!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I haven't had a chance to put the music on there. TONIGHT I'm super excited. I also got a biggest loser weight managment program that I'll be setting up tonight and a humidifyer to try to stop all these stupid bloody noses I've been having. OH and speaking of NOSES...... I GOT MINE PIERCED last night :) along with my 2 best friends and sisters. :) I've always wanted one but oh my gosh it hurt so bad and it still does i'm just trying to hold out with it the longest I can hopefully it stops hurting and I get used to it then I'll keep it in :) So I also have weight loss stuff to tell you about but I'll get on later tonight after I've been to church and the gym (with my mom) and get all my birthday presents set up. TTFN

I need to reenergize

Hey everybody,
So I need to do a real quick post this morning.... I was going to take today (Friday) off of going to the gym. Fridays and Sundays I was planning to not go. Unless I didn't have to work on Friday. It's not really set in stone or anything obviously like I'm off work on Sunday and my mom wants to go to the gym so I'm thinking we might go then. Anyways moral of the story I was not going to go today but then last night I get off work and have a horrible horrible headache but figure if I have a nice healthy protein packed dinner I'll be ready to go do a quick workout before going home for the night. I get to the Y change my clothes and go to put my tennis shoes on oh but guess what i left at home that morning???? If you guessed my tennis shoes you would be correct. So I came home without doing my workout. BUT thats probably a good thing because I got to bed early and am a little more spunky than I would normally be this morning. And instead of taking today off of working out. I am going to the gym bright and early not so bright but it is kinda early this morning. I have a three day weekend this week to help celebrate my 23rd birthday I'm super excited. gotta get to the gym now BYE BYE!!!!

Great Day

Hi Everyone,
I'm super excited I have another follower, another one of my sisters. You have no idea how happy this makes me. I love getting lot's of comments too. I had another good day of workout. After working both jobs today I went to the Y of course and get this, I did the eliptical for 60 minutes.... YES I did say that ONE WHOLE HOUR. Don't worry I've learned my lesson I'm very sore. We'll see how I feel tommorow. I'm so tired but I really felt great that I was able to do that. It wasn't even a regular striaght lined eliptical workout. I did a "various" workout. This means the intesity changes up and down every minute for, yeah thats righ,t an hour. I got my crossramp up to a level 13. I don't know very much about eliptical "talk" but I know this is good especially for an over 200 lb chick. I am ever so proud of myself. I just continue to hope I can keep up the good work. I hope the pain I know I'm going to be in tommorow just pushes me to keep pushing forward. ok so I just wanted to let you all know that I had yet another successful day. But I am quite exhausted so I'm going to turn in for the evening. Just to keep you all updated though I don't think I'm going to push myself to get up early tommorow morning so I'm going to allow myself to sleep in a little. I think I'll do something similiar to what I did this evening and go to the Y after work again. I think it will help me sleep real well. I'll talk to you all again soon. BYES

I've got too much on my mind!!!

Hey Everybody,

So I just got done watching THE BIGGEST LOSER with my mom and I absolutly LOVE the Theme song .... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8WmOqlvffak. And when it first started I almost started crying and now as I was just searching Youtube and finding the videos I found including this one.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFgPbEuWrYw, I really did shed a tear, because I now what it takes to make ME FEEL PROUD!!!!! I have experienced that feeling and it's sad but I've just realized that it's been a REALLY long time since I've felt that way. I had another great workout this morning. I think one thing that is pushing me to keep going is the fear of going back to what I've done in the past which is not finishing. I've put in my previous Biggest Loser audition video that I've started this battle so many times I can't count them all but NOW is my time, I am going to FINISH this battle. Thats such an amazing feeling. I am scared to death for that not to be true. I'm seeing what it feels like to be proud of myself, I dont' want that feeling to go away. So I know it's up to me. But I also put a little of that on all of you because this blog and the people that read it are holding me accountable for my actions (or non actions). I want to thank you all for that. So anyway enough of the emotional heart wrenching confessions (for now anyways).
So my workout this morning. I started off a little late, I was supposed to be at the gym to meet with the trainer to set up a workout at nine am. I got out of bed at 8:30 the time I should have been leaving. So I got there a little late which had me feeling a little discouraged. But I got there and got right to work. I went through ten machines working my upper body and lower body with weight training. Then we get all done and "my trainer" encourages me to do some cardio. oh yeah I forgot to mention this was after I asked her to show me the rowing machine which I didn't know how to use but I had seen somebody else using it and it looked "fun" but had heard that it was hard. What could be better than a fun hard workout right? at least for a little variety in my workout which I'm constantly looking for so I dont' get bored in my routine. Anything I can do to get and continue getting results. (by the way I'm listening to my workout playlist right now and it's so awesome right now I'm listening to wilson phillips Hold ON and I love it it's so fitting. :) ) Anyways back to my workout so I did the rowing machine for like two minutes but it wasn't too bad I can definently see myself doing it in the future. So then I signed up to do the tredmill for my regular fifteen minutes with varying (sp) speeds, between 3.0 and 3.2. I love the machines at my Y they have tvs on some of them so you can just hook your headphones into the machine (cause my mp3 player STILL doesn't have my music on it, hopefully my WONDERFUL sister will help me with that when she comes home this weekend for my birthday ;) ) So for my time on the tredmill I rocked out to some CMT. then I had to wait ten minutes for my turn on an eliptical with a tv (it really makes ALL the difference) so I took myself on a little tour of the building, I found the gymnasium and a drinking fountain with COLD water :) Then went back upstairs for my eliptical workout. Now heres the BEST part.... I did the eliptical for HALF AN HOUR!!!!!!!!! I didn't go very fast but I figure I can work my way up to that. I think the thing that really helped me with staying on for so long was that my favorite show was on and I was watching the ever hilarious GILMORE GIRLS :) SO THENNNNN I still wanted to work out some more but didn't want to hurt myself by working out too much and I wanted to change things up a little so I went down to the pool and did some treading water and swam a full 2 laps which is pretty good for me cause I'm not a very good swimmer. And I was impressed with myself cause I was able to make it the whole length of the pool doing the, I think, butterfly move. then came all the way back on back stroke. did some treading then did it again. :) I know your all so proud of me as I am with myself.
So I need to get some sleep but I haven't something else weighing on my mind this evening. (other than the fact that my stomach is making me think I'm hungry which I hate late at night. so I'm trying to ignore) So towards the end of THe Biggest LOser Bob comes on and says they're casting for the next season of the show. Of course my stomach goes into knots and my mom goes "get on your computer right now and do it" she's always so encouraging in a pushy way lol. So I do but meanwhile telling her it's not that easy. It's actually a very long process so I'm in the midst of it AGAIN!! You may ask I thought you wanted this and isn't it a good thing well yes both of those things are true. But here's the thing well theres a few things bothering me about this. First of all after you've been rejected so many times you kind of want to stop doing the thing thats getting you rejected. Then there's getting your hopes up and I dont' want to go through all that again. I am also worried that somehow doing this would get in the way of the success I already having. I am also scared of the possibility of actually getting accepted I know it's kind of crazy but they do some crazy shit on that show. I have a lot of fears and they make you walk straight up to your fears face to face and beat that fear out of you so to speak. sURE THEY have awesome success stories and in the end thats all that matters and I will put myself back out on that ledge and jump into the challenge all I'm saying is that it's scaryvery very scary. Ok so I'm ready for a flood of advice and comments from all of you reading this. :) I love you all and thank you for your support. ttfn

pool exercises for my benefit and yours :)

Hi Everybody, I don't have a whole lot to say about anything today.... I didn't go workout the gym has shorter hours on Sunday and I figured it's not bad to take one day off a week so I'll be back to the gym tommorow. Anyways so as I promised yesterday I'm doing some research on pool workouts. I'm going to post what I find on here so it's easy for me to find next time I go to the Y to do a pool workout and so if cyber buddies of mine out there want the information here goes.
http://www.workoutsforyou.com/water.htm
Leg Lift: Stand in shoulder-deep water and hold onto the edge of the pool lightly for balance. Extend your right leg straight out to the side as far up as you can bring it. But, only go as far as you can while keeping toes pointing toward the pool wall (don't let your ankle turn) and keeping your hips straight toward the wall. Complete 8-10 times. Repeat on left leg.
Water Roman Chair: In deep water, float either on a tube or two kickboards (resting under your arms). Place your feet together and bend your knees up to at least waist-level, pause briefly and return. Repeat 8-10 times.
Lateral Raises: Stand in shoulder-deep water with arms hanging straight down against your sides. Slowly extend both arms straight out to the sides all the way up to the water-level. Pause briefly and repeat.
Swim/Walk interval laps: Swim 1-2 laps (use any swim form you prefer: crawl, backstroke, etc). Walk 1-2 laps in the pool. Repeat sequence 4-6 times.
Water Squats: Stand in the water with feet about hip-width apart. Bend your knees slightly as you push your hips back as if you are sitting on a chair. Keep your knees behind your toes. Keep your feet planted firmly on the ground. Squeeze your glutes as you raise up. Return to start position and repeat. The water provides extra resistance and makes this move more challenging.
Wave Jumps (for those with access to the ocean or a wave-simulator): Stand in knee-deep or less water. Each time a wave comes attempt to jump over it. Note: this is a more advanced move that requires good balance and strong swimming skills. Do not attempt this move unless you have experience swimming in waves.
Water Jogging: Can be done with the use of flotation devices where your feet don’t touch the ground or the traditional way of actually jogging in the water. If using a flotation device, run in place with your feet never touching the ground. If on the ground, try running 1-2 laps and then resting for 60 seconds. It's more challenging in deep water and less in shallow water."
http://www.ehow.com/how_2019469_use-swimming-pool-abdominal-workout.html
Step 1
Walk. Walk in the shallow end of the pool [about 3 feet deep]. While you walk back-and-forth across the pool, with each step, pull your knee up to your chest while keeping your back straight. Tighten your abs as your pull your knee up to your chest.
Step 2
Leg Lifts. In slightly deeper water, [about 4 feet or higher, as long as your head is above the water] perform leg lifts. You will lift each leg one at a time towards your chest. This will be like the exercise you did in step 1 with walking, but in this exercise you will lift your legs to your chest at a much faster pace. In fact, lift each leg to your chest as fast as possible. Try to keep your back straight and tighten your abs as you perform this maneuver.
Step 3
Tread Water. Go to the deep end. Tread water for one minute. Rest and repeat 5 or 10 times. Keep your abs tight as your tread water. Treading water provides a great work out for your entire body, but also works out your abs.
Step 4
Get a Kickboard. Do the backstroke kick with the kickboard. Hold the kickboard to your chest and turn on your back. While holding the kickboard, try to do the backstroke kick while keeping your thighs, knees and feet as close to the surface as possible.
Step 5
The wall grab. Find an area of the pool deep enough so your feet do not touch the ground. Grab the side of the wall. Slowly lift your knees to your chest while tightening your abs. Repeat at least 20 times.
http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/maia3.htm
Quadriceps - Learn More For the quadriceps (front of the thighs), hamstrings and glutes: Stand with your feet hip-width apart in shallow water with your arms bent at your sides, hands out flat with fingers together and palms up. Slowly bend your knees into a squat position, sticking your derriere out behind you (don't worry about looking silly - you're under water!). Do not allow your knees to extend beyond your toes, but try to simulate a sitting-in-a-chair position. Cupping your hands, keeping your back neutral (not arched) and abs tucked in, exhale and stand up straight. Turn your hands to return to the starting position. Be very careful to maintain perfect form throughout this exercise.
Hips & Glutes - Learn More For hips and glutes: Facing the edge of the pool, hold on with both hands and slowly bring one leg out to your side, keeping your back straight. Exhale while you bring it up as high as you comfortably can without turning at the ankle (this probably won't be as high as you could if you did turn your ankle). Bring it back down and repeat, doing a full set for each leg. For glutes: KICK! You can breeze around on a kickboard or hold onto the side of the pool, but the scissoring motion is great for the buttocks and hamstrings, and it indirectly tones the abdominals. What could be more fun than this?
Back & Shoulders - Learn More For the back, shoulders and arms: Do pull-ups. Grasp the side of the pool and lower your body as far as your arms will allow. Keeping your knees bent, exhale and pull yourself up as high as you can (the range of motion for this will vary greatly from one person to another). For the chest: Standing in water up to your neck, reach your hands out to each side, with your elbows unbent and your palms forward. Slowly bring them together, clapping your hands, and then turn your hands to return to the starting position.
Triceps - Learn More For triceps: Stand straight, with your open hands palms-down on the surface of the water. Keeping your elbows locked at your sides (pretend they're glued to your ribcage), exhale and push down until your hands are beside your hips. Turn your hands and bring them back to the starting position.
Biceps - Learn More For biceps: Bring your open hands to the side of each hip, palms forward, with your fingers close together. Exhale as you slowly bend at the elbow to bring your hands toward your shoulders.
Biceps - Learn More For abs, you can simulate crunches, or here's a toughie: stand with your back to the side of the pool, holding onto the rim with your elbows. Keeping your knees unbent, slowly bring both legs up to a sitting position and hold it for ten seconds. Do not hold your breath, though. Breath slowly throughout this exercise. Then bend at the knee to bring them down, repeating this as many times as you'd like to. Be careful to keep your back straight throughout this exercise.
There are lots of gadgets available for toning; you can get these at most department stores or athletic supply stores. They make the work a little more challenging and possibly give you speedier results, but it's better to begin water exercise without them. Once you feel like you need to push yourself a little harder, go ahead and use them. They'll add a new flavor to your old workout, keeping you motivated and interested.
http://www.kayakpoolsmidwest.com/splash-zone/health-and-recreation/the-30-minute-swimming-pool-workout.aspx
Facts FirstWater provides natural resistance to movement and buoyancy, meaning whether you keep to the shallow end of the swimming pool or explore the deep, you’ll be burning energy as you move. Your weight will almost be completely supported by the water itself—perfect for those with joint pain or previous injuries, and ideal for those looking for a calorie burning exercise.
Warm up: (5 minutes, minimum)Whether you are a beginner or fitness veteran, properly stretching your muscle groups is vital to a safe swimming pool workout. You can execute almost all land-based stretching exercises in your swimming pool. Take care to stretch the large muscle groups of the legs, arms, back and chest, and don’t forget to simply walk around in the water to slowly elevate your heart rate.
Strength and Endurance: (10-20 minutes)Begin by walking in a straight line from one side of the pool to the other, submerging yourself as deeply as possible into the water. Push your arms forward, fan them out and pull them behind you as you work your way across the swimming pool.
Gradually increase your pace and slowly lengthen both your stride and your reach, using your arms to help pull yourself through the water. As you move faster, resistance will increase and your balance will be challenged. Work up to your fastest, in-control pace and execute two fast walks back and forth across the pool.
Now choose a swimming stroke (breaststroke, backstroke, crawl, etc.) and swim one complete lap (across the pool and back) at a pace that allows you to complete one trip.
Repeat one lap of fast walking, followed by a controlled swimming lap using a different stroke. Work your way through all of the swimming strokes you know, only one lap each, followed by a fast walk lap. In no time, you will have worked every major muscle group in your body while elevating your heart rate over a fixed period of time.
Cool down. (5 minutes, minimum)At the end of your multiple passes across the pool, repeat the stretching exercises you executed during warm up to allow the muscles time to relax, and to minimize soreness.
There’s flexibility here, of course. You may, as your fitness level allows, choose to execute one stroke per day for a number of laps (using different strokes on different workout days), or increase the number of laps you swim using all the strokes you know. In truth, you need not swim at all—bobbing, jumping, dipping, lunging, all work against the natural resistance of the pool water to exercise your muscles.
Since even 30 minutes of moderate pool exercise can burn up to 300 calories, it’s easy to see how a quick half hour workout, just three times a week, can have long-lasting health benefits. The point is, have fun with your workout routine, be creative in your effort, and make it easy to repeat the exercise again and again.

Wow thats kind of a lot so... lets get to it.

Eh

Hey Everybody,
So I'm not feeling really great right now but I know I didn't do an actual post last night so I wanted to be sure I did a real one today..... So, I'm at the YMCA right now. Wanted to at least come in and do SOMETHING today even though I wasn't feeling very well. It's not a big deal or anything like the flu or a cold or anything. I just have stomach problem sometimes and unfortunatly right now is one of those times.
I really wanted to tell you all about my workout yesterday morning because it was so amazing then I'll tell you about tonights cause I need some help. So yesterday I had to work at 11am like normal. I set my alarm for 8am and got up on time and everything I didn't even feel very tired probably because I was still on a mini feeling good/energy drink high from the night before but anyhow. I got up on time even had time to do dishes and get house a little cleaned up before I left.. By the way please don't anybody mention this whole working out thing to my baby.... Daisy (my dog) She's getting a little jealous that I haven't been around much and when I do finally get home at night I'm so exhausted I usually go straight upstairs to go to bed or post on this thing or like last night spend some quality time with my mom..... even though while we were watching the movie I was researching sites to post on here :) Any way's.... how off subject I can get... I get to the gym yesterday morning and it's super busy, So I'm told the mini gym downstairs has a few machines open and they can reserve one for me. Awesome back downstairs I go..... My tredmill I get is facing a brick wall. GREAT INSPIRATION!!!! I know lol. so after five minutes it's getting pretty boring but my goal is to stay on for 15 minutes. How am I going to make it through another ten minutes staring at this brick wall? Well in the past if I ever tried closing my eyes on the tredmill I would get all dizzy and almost fall off and make a fool out of myself so very carefully I try it this time. I'm FINE!!! yay. So the trick to staying the whole time on a tredmill with no tv no music no nothing while facing a brick wall..... imagine yourself thin, I was picturing myself shopping for a wedding dress, running in a BIKINI on the beach, playing with kids (the kid lover that I am). You just have to remind yourself of the reasons your on the tredmill on the first place. That ten minutes flew by and I was even able to up my speed a little bit and the last minute I was on there... I JOGGED. :) So then as if that wasn't triumphant enough, I moved onto the eliptical which is fastly becoming one of my favorite exercise machines. I like doing it but I'm not usually able to stay on for very long. Except for yesterday my greatest exercise day ever. My average time of being on an eliptical? 3-5 minutes depending on how I'm feeling. How long did I stay on yesterday you may ask? 15 minutes!!!!yay:) Not only that but I'm not a person who really sweats I probably wouldn't even need one hand to count the times I remember sweating in my life. But I was dripping with sweat yesterday after I got off that eliptical. Other people may not have been able to see it cause I don't think it was coming off my face mostly my back and legs arms etc. but I don't care I'm just happy I was sweating to me that means I'm finally getting to the point of making a difference. And get this if I hadn't had to stop to get ready for work I would have been able to keep going!!!! so thats something I'll have to try a day I'm not in a hurry to get to work.... how long can I stay on the eliptical? Ok so they're about to kick me out of the y cause they're closing and want to go home for the night so I'll quickly try to tell you about my workout tonight so I told you I wasn't feeling well and I read last night that you need to try to change up your workout on a regular basis so you don't get tired of it or hit a platau (sp). So I decided to get in the pool tonight which honestly to me I love to be in the water so it doesn't even seem like I'm working out. I swam, tread water, did laps walking everything I could think of but how do you know if you've had a good workout in the pool? obviously you don't sweat, you don't really hurt cause being in the pool is good for the joints and such. Anybody have any ideas and also I plan on researching workouts to do in the pool other than swimming so I can work on doing this on a regular basis. Maybe gym one day weights another then pool? thats what I'm thinking right now anyways I gotta get home. I don't think I'm going to come to the gym tommorow but I'll still try to post. I'll definently be back Monday though it's my day off. So Have a great night and I'll talk to you all later.

Other weightloss blogs to check out.....

Hey everyone I'll have more to come tonight but I wanted to include you all in some cool blogs I've had some help finding. .....
http://www.priorfatgirl.com/
http://onceuponadiet.blogspot.com/
http://skinnydreaming.blogspot.com/
http://tonysdietlog.blogspot.com/
http://pandabites.blogspot.com/
http://www.fattyweightloss.com/
http://khmerbeauty.buddyslim.com/
http://beckyboo.buddyslim.com/
My mom and I loved this post it's hilarious and kind of fitting because I LOVE mini carrots but thankfully have never eaten a whole bag. ..... "So, yesterday I thought I was being all good, craving carrots and all… Well, I sat down to do my notes on the computer at work and well, I had a little bag of mini carrots. Whole bag is about 200 calories so I fiured I could chomp on them throughout the day. Well, lo and behold, in less than an hour, WHOLE bag is GONE! Within the next 30 minutes after that, it HITS! PAIN! PAIN! and more PAIN! From about noon until 7 pm lastnight (all pain is NOT completely gone this evening, mind u…) I was in the MOST excruciating pain I have EVER felt. Now, I have never had a baby so I can’t go there, but this pain was almost unbearable. I mean, I felt like what I imagine contractions of labor feel like. All through my whole body. Ouchie. So, word to the wise, don’t EVER eat the ENTIRE bag of mini carrots in one sitting because your body will BE pissed off and it will pay u back! "
Ohhhh I'm super excited I just found this yay!!!!!
http://www.uspharmd.com/blog/2008/top-100-weight-loss-blogs/
and other cool websites ..........
http://www.crankyfitness.com/
ok so I only found one worth posting but thats ok...

Great Night

Hey Everyone!!!!
So I had an unexpected great night.... It all started off with me staying up entirely too late last night. As an effect of that I was very tired this morning and ended up sleeping in when I should have been at the gym working out. So I got up just in time to get ready for work and I get there and what does one of my co-workers ask me? How is my weight loss journey going.... lol what timing. So I told her how I was supposed to workout and wasn't able so she says why don't you go after work. I very gloomily say I had to work both jobs so it would be a fun filled day of work. She very forcefully said well you just have to go after work. Which is exactly what I did. There is a Y that I went to as a child located near my evening job. So Because once you join one Y you can go to any of them, I went to the one closer to where I was. I had a great time some of that is due to an energy drink my sister suggested I try I think personally she says I'm probably just psyched and happy with myself for working out which I think both are partially true. Anyways so I am not very familiar with this gym so I start out on the tredmill always a good starting place. So I walked a mile on the tredmill messing with different settings and seeing what I can do with different inclines and speeds. I jogged for about 30 seconds lol. and I feel like I did a good job. So then I wanted to try something else. I was super excited to see that they had a punching bag which honestly I've always wanted one it's a great way to workout and work off steam when your mad. So I messed around with that for a little while enjoyed kicking it alot but punching was not easy with my weak little hands. I didn't feel like there was much else to do in the gym which is kind of out dated and not nearly as nice as the Y I normally attend. But I also didn't feel like I wanted to leave yet considering I had only been there a half hour which is better than nothing but I wanted to take advantage of actually feeling like being active which is normally rare for me. So I walked around just seeing what there was to see. I found a gymnasium. There was a volleyball and a couple of basketballs just laying around and the place was empty probably because of how late it was. So I just messed around with that stuff for a little while which was surprisingly a good work out as well. So I'm feeling great and even though I've ended up staying up later than I was planning I am hoping to make it back to the gym in the morning again. So I better sign off and get some sleep so I'm able to do that. THANKS for reading..... ttfn

LAte

Hey Everybody,
I love how my blog has grown today it's very exciting for me. Thanks to everybody who has viewed my blog and double thanks to those of you who are following me because honestly unless you follow me or comment on one of my posts I don't know that you've visited me. My count shows how many hits I've had but not WHO those people are. Anyways, I'm rambling. I just wanted to say this evening that I'm hoping it's a kind of short post, which is rare to impossible for me cause I just love to type... weird I know, because it's late and I need to get up early in the morning to go workout cause I didn't today. I've had a not very good weight loss day. The other areas of my life seemed to take over a little today. I had a lot to do and thankfully I got that other stuff done but never did get to the gym or did any exercising at all. I was hoping to do a workout video or even just some sit ups when I got home (which wasn't till like 10 till midnight) but I am just way too exhausted. Then once again I had a super late dinner after getting off work and going to the laundry mat. I had a cheeseburger and half an order of fries. ON the bright side, I did have water and have been doing very well with not drinking pop. I have only been drinking mostly water, juice, and milk, with raspberry iced tea now and then for some flavor and caffeine. Oh and for all of you fellow food lovers out there.... the burger was delicious and not a fast food burger but a real restraunt/diner burger. Which brings me to a thought I was thinking about on my way home.... is there a nutrious difference between fast food burgers and restruant burgers? On that very intellectual thought I'm signing off and crashing for a few hours before getting up in the AM to go workout. Thanks for all your support. Night night

Followers

hey I see alot of people checking out my site.... PLEASE sign up to follow me??????

yaY

hI Everyone,,
I'm super excited this really doesn't have anything to do with my weightloss but everything to do with my blog!!!! I (a not very computer savvy person) created a counter for my blog thanks to the very helpful email my sis sent me on everything you can do with a blog. And thanks to my friend Anna I now also have my very first follower!!!! I'm a real live blogger now. :) hehe Ok now I need to go get ready for work and make some mula. I'll post again tonight when I get home. BYE

*While looking for those other two posts I had written but lost I also found this one which was from the first day of my workout journey. I never even knew I lost it. I think I either forgot about it or thought I posted it and it never really posted. :( I would normally just delete it but i feel like it's a really good post and tells you alot. So i'm posting it now.... Enjoy :) *
Hey all,

So I'm sitting here watching the biggest loser with my mom. Honestly it hasn't been as inspiring as some of the other episodes. Except for one part, there's one of the contestants who thought it was a sign of weakness to cry and be emotional which is so not true in this show and especially in the weightloss journey. I was so frustrated when she wouldn't open up and talk about what was weighing her down she wanted to leave the show. I was furious, there's so many people in the country who want to be on this show (of course including me) and anybody who watches the show or has gone through the journey knows that it's not just the physical that changes when you lose the weight and it's not only the physical that you need to work on. It's also the emotional. You have to figure out what your baggage is so to speak. Find out whats going on inside of you that makes you want to just eat and eat and not exercise. Obviously I have not figured this out yet for myself or I wouldn't still be 120 lbs overweight. And if you go through the weightloss journey and try not to figure out the emotional or deny that there is an emotional tie to your weight problem you will either fail or succeed temporarily then end up putting all that weight back on. Personally I think this is where my problem is. Honestly I know how to lose the weight. I know what I should and shouldn't eat. I know how long and how often I need to do what exercises. I have some kind of emotional head game going on with my self that is holding me back and I think that is why the Biggest Loser would help me so much..... because they broach ALL of the faces of weight problems. IF there are contestants on the show that do not agree or feel they need to deal with these problems to be successful they are just plain full of shit and don't deserve to be on the show when there are those of us out here who know that is part of the journey and are ready to have the shit emotionally beat out of us so that we can be healthy happy people in the long run. Wow that was a really long rant but I feel better now :)

Moving on.... I had my first "meeting" at the gym this morning. It went well but wasn't exactly what I was expecting. It went by really fast. We (the trainer and I) did a fitness evaluation. I am allowed 3 free ones a year with my gym membership. I did 11 sit ups and walked 1 mile in 18 minutes which is pretty good for me. Then the girl took my heart rate and said it was very good considering my condition. I'm meeting with her again next tuesday to set up a routine with the weight machines and everything. I hope to get in there two more times before then on my own.

hungry

Hey guys so I've been home from work for awhile and it's after ten and I'm hungry. But I know you/I shouldn't eat this late at night but I'm not sure I would be able to sleep being this hungry and even if I was able to fall asleep I would be that much more super hungry in the morning which would be a really bad thing cause I have to get up alot earlier than I normally do to go to the gym and meet with the trainer for the first time. No I don't have a personal trainer it's just the gym that I joined gives 2 free trainer meetings. So hopefully tommorow is the first day to my weightloss journey. So I'm watching one of my favorite shows right now but then I'm going to go downstairs and try to scrounge up something partially healthy for dinner. Oh and I forgot to include that I put an ad out on craigslist for a workout buddy thinking if I had somebody to workout with I would be more likely to go to the gym and workout more often. I found a response to this ad in my email when I got home from work. It's a 18 year old girl that has been looking for a gym to join. She says she just moved to ohio and has been looking for some way to workout. And if I haven't found somebody yet I should call her. what I'm wondering is should I meet this girl first and see if we get along and if we're similiar people or just jump in I don't know if you have any advice or pointers let me know. Thanks talk to ya later.

opps sorry didn't know that was going to happen.....http://www.okmagazine.com/2010/01/ali-vincents-biggest-loser-blog-fears-game-play-in-week-2/ then this is the link to ali vincents website ........... http://www.alivincent.com/about-ali.html PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT SHE'S AMAZING TTFN

First Post

Hi, my name is Kelly. I want to be on the biggest loser and I need to lose 115 lbs to be healthy. I'm 4 foot 10 inches tall and weight about 215 lbs. Honestly I try not to stay up on how much I weigh. I recently joined the YMCA but have only been a couple of time. for christmas my older sis got me everything I could ever need to workout and get ready for work afterward but I just haven't been able to get into a routine of going. Most days I have to be to work at 11am so I'm hoping to go to the gym between 8-9am everyday. I know I'll be super happy with myself if I could just get into this routine. I created a blog before, wrote in it 3 times then forgot about it until I went to create this one. I'm relying on anybody reading this to not let that happen again. I need subtle encouragment to stay on this journey. NOt that I don't get that at home but I tend to listen to complete strangers better than I do my parents. I watch the biggest loser every week with my mom. I've auditioned to be on it 2 times before. Before I felt like it was the only thing that I could do to lose weight. I've changed my mind. I would still LOVE To be on the biggest loser but they've kind of made me a little mad by not taking me then taking other girls that audition tapes and stories are almost exactly like mine. So now i'm out to prove to my self and everyone around me that I can do it on my own. no matter how long it takes. I can and will lose this weight. I'm hoping to write on here every evening and or morning. telling how I feel or how my day went. I'm warning you now I'll probably get a little off topic now and then cause as you can see already i'm really good at rambling. SO here goes I'm looking forward to responses from all of you out there. by the way anybody who is interested while looking at other peoples blogs I found Ali Vincents which as far as i can tell she's only blogged once but i'm going to add a link to her page cause i absolutly love her and her site interested me so it might interest one of you out there in cyber world. this is her blog off ok magazine about this seasons biggest loser